killer thunder: i'am a prisoner in my own cell.

killer thunder: i'am a prisoner in my own cell.: I am a prisoner. I am a prisoner in my own cell. I’m locked in a dark place, four walls around me. I only see the light through shadows. ...

i'am a prisoner in my own cell.

I am a prisoner.
I am a prisoner in my own cell.
I’m locked in a dark place, four walls around me.
I only see the light through shadows.
I only see my shadow and only feel the loneliness and bitterness inside me.

I am a prisoner.
I am a prisoner in my own cell.
I sit everyday and night in a hell hole, trying to find myself. Trying to find out how did I become a prisoner. How did I ended here?

Shadows of my past follow me, shadows of my demons can’t let me sleep.

How did I become a prisoner?

I just feel anger, loneliness, pain, hate flowing inside me. What have I done to be here? Why did I let this happen?

Well I suppose the answer lies with me, I am a prisoner not by crime but because I find myself locked up in my own cell. I can’t be free, I can't get out of this dark four walls room. I’m filled with hate and revenge.

I can’t face the world like this, I can't share my pain. I’m alone I beat myself and torture myself because I have no one to share the feeling in me.

Everyday of my life there is no happiness the happiness I had has been replaced by my hate, anger and my hunger for revenge.

I have been in this place for so long, i had time to think and the time to decide who I am and what I want to be. I have found the real me and I have changed. I am evolution. It took 100 nights and 100 days to evolve to this person.

I see no love to the world there is no place for man like me. It seems as if what I touch dies, rot and everything that made me happy makes me feel unwanted. The person in me is the person I have become.

I have become a monster in my own generation. If feel no mercy with no love, many will find no comfort next to me. My eyes are full of fire; I burn everything I look at. I don’t see the beauty of life and nature anymore.

I am what I am and don’t know for how long. I don’t know what I can do as I no longer know what I am?

Many people find themselves in this place and darkness I’m in and take bad decisions. They take wrong path and get lost forever.

This is the feeling we all feel inside when we are lost, lonely, angry and seeking revenge. It is not a normal feeling but the question is can I handle this? Can I be the person I used to be?

You don’t have to be. You must find the new person in you. You feel like you have been let down. You feel like you should fight back the feeling. There is no love in the place you find yourself in.

Love is difficult to find or to see. Love is very far from us because we never knew it. I grew up not feeling the love, a mystery child full of anger.

Pain and love goes together, anger and loneliness are best friends you can’t separate them. But to find love mean you have to leave and sacrifice whatever makes you happy. To be loved means you have to leave a clone's life.

You can never be loved for who you’re but you can only be loved for what you have become. People love what they see about you and accept what they hear about you. They can hate.

My new me have changed the way I think and act. As I act like a beast spotting a prey. It goes deeper in the grass and makes no sound. The eyes wide open and nothing can distract it from killing its prey. The beast with a strong and sharp mind never moves eyes from a prey before it catches it.

I’m the beast I feast only fresh meat. I kill for my prey.

Will this feeling ever pass me, will it die as it is a dangerous one. Many become beasts forever they can't find the way back where they were. I see people committing suicide because they feel defeated.

Only you can change the way you think, the way you live and the way you see the world. It takes a brave man and woman to change; there is still one thing left. What do you want to become? You don't like the person you're right now and you know the person you want to be.

You lived to impress, this is no more stop impressing people who don't want to be impress by you. Or who takes advantage of you

fear

Fear. This is something which makes us not go for what we want in live, and it is something we are not ready to overcome. This is a monster we are afraid to face, we can't face the fact that this is something which hold us back from our dreams. when fear comes we hide ourselves from it. we run away from it, because we dont want to fight it. I say now is time to face our fears, it is time to stand for what we believe in ,and our values. It is time to fight fear and go for your dreams. We have run away from things we dont know for a very long time not knowing what fear bring to our lifes,wheaher is sucess or failure.

fear is the enemy of heart and mind  

Forgiveness

Sometmes we say things we dont mean when we are angry at someone.We then after feel bad about it but we dont have the goughts to go to the same person and say im sorry i said things i wasnt suppose to say im here to apologies. We find it very hard to ask for forgiveness for the wrong things we did or said, but think about yourself,what if it was you who is hurt what will you do will forgive that someone when he/she come to you and say im sorry i shouldent have said those things i said to you.

• Will you forgive that person or will hold cruches for ever? 
• What does this word forgiveness mean to you?   

I just want you to tell me what will you do if you hurt someone and how are you going to face it. Even if it ou who is been hurt just tell me will you forgive that person or you will just tell the person to go awy and never talk to you again. You can even ask for my advice on what to do when in this possition.

its all about you

Describe yourself in one word.

how do you see south african technology

What do you think abou the technology we have here in south africa? is it the cheapest in the world or we are still way behind?

Why is it dificult for south africa to give south africans free internet service, is it because we have big hearts when we come to money, the world is recieving free wifi even in some of the places here in south africa are already getting free wifi, but it is only in the cities what about peolple from the rural areas when will this  benefits be enjoyed by the poor everything good start from the cities where there is lots of rich people living there but things are getting much harder for the poor in the rural areas.

The rich become become more richer the poor become more poorer in our beloved country. Why?

God love africa

I have the the rights becuase im an african. Im happy to be an african. I dont need someone who will make me feel like is absin being african. God love africa we have rights to vote for any political party we want and we are free to speak our minds in the future of africa. God love us we are the sun moons of africa.

I am a south african i believe in the future of this country i know what is best for this country. I know what we want as south africans. Do you feel blessed for bieng a south african? Can u die for this country? Just want you to tell me what can you dofor this country. Do you feel our government have fulfilled tits promises? if not where do you see this government after the elections?

What do you of oscar pitorius? is he going to jail or what?

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet? Some will say no we still have a long way to go. Some will say we have arrived. But what do you say? here comes 07 may 2014 many of us are still asking ourselfs what wil happen afer the elections. Do you see south africa moving forward or we are still  standing on place with no changes. i dont know, I want to hear i from you. Do you see racial discrimination over yet? will black and whites live togeher in peace or there is still much work need to be done. Do you think we willl be one, with one voice, one mind, one vote. Are we there yet?